Sometimes useful to lose everything, to understand, what you does not really have. 

                                                      Clive Staples Lewis

This night I couldn’t fall asleep because of the plenty of thoughts coming to my head. So what? Shall I just keep on lying like this? I was recalling my childhood dream in details. I was recalling us driving a little blue Volkswagen van from the 70th on the sea surface. The car windows are open, the curtains are in the wind. There’s a mountain on the right and a steep on the left and we can see the seaside down there. We stop at a little food store in this area where they sell fresh fruit and vegetables, fish and meat. I ask my friends what they are going to have for dinner and according to their preferences I choose what to buy. The products are very fresh as they were picked up at 4 in the morning and the smell of vegetables and herbs is so pleasant. We reach the camping area and I start cooking food. Some of my friends swim, some of them make a fire, some set up tents. One of my friends is plucking guitar strings trying to figure out the chords of the song he heard at the café yesterday. And it stops! My dream is vanishing. And smth inside me says: So what?This night I couldn’t fall asleep because of the plenty of thoughts coming to my head. So what? Shall I just keep on lying like this? I was recalling my childhood dream in details. I was recalling us driving a little blue Volkswagen van from the 70th on the sea surface. The car windows are open, the curtains are in the wind. There’s a mountain on the right and a steep on the left and we can see the seaside down there. We stop at a little food store in this area where they sell fresh fruit and vegetables, fish and meat. I ask my friends what they are going to have for dinner and according to their preferences I choose what to buy. The products are very fresh as they were picked up at 4 in the morning and the smell of vegetables and herbs is so pleasant. We reach the camping area and I start cooking food. Some of my friends swim, some of them make a fire, some set up tents. One of my friends is plucking guitar strings trying to figure out the chords of the song he heard at the café yesterday. And it stops! My dream is vanishing. And smth inside me says: So what? When are you going to see your favorite seaside? Your mum used to tell you so much about the sea when you were a child, but you couldn’t make time out to the sea because of your age. What stops me now when I’m an adult? And now I see there are no excuses. Those types of excuses adults normally have. And I finally made my mind to hit the road and go on a tour around the world!!! No excuses!!! I have no kids or mortgage loans, I have no obligations. And my mobile phone has broken down as if on purpose. And my little puppy chewed my credit card up! I’m totally free. Millions of people dream of it! I have everything I need to do this! What am I waiting for? Now I’ve got a plan after reading a lot of articles and blogs: 1. I need to set up an aim and a topic of my trip. It should be special. I’d better check when national holidays in these countries are. 2. Mark the places I want to visit on the map 3. Write some letters and send them to big publishing companies and find the sponsors of the trip 4. I can think of some TV shows about travelling too. These are some plans for the near future. You’d agree with me on the fact it’s awesome to wake up in the morning and ask yourself: what is waiting for me today? What great people will I meet today or which new animals will I see? Or might it be the day when I try a meal for the first time and it will become my favorite on!!!!!

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What is it all for?

Our generation is totally obsessed with attention to them. I hate publicity. But I am desperate for self-searching in order to understand myself and my thoughts better. This blog is about everything  and nothing at the same time. Let’s imagine I’m Robin Scherbatski. Oh, yeah, I really love the series called “How I met your mom”. But this is not what I’m going to discuss now. I have taken a break for a while in my life. I’d like to get the idea of what went wrong in my life and I’d like to get an answer to such questions as: Who am I? What’s my mission? And one of the most important one , I guess: What is it all for?